there is an internal war being waged inside of me. every second of every day the fibers of my being are in a state of siege over my destiny. i am split into two halves - one wishes to find love and live happily ever after, the other wishes to go explore the world. im tortured every day by the thoughts of either of these wishes and what will happen if i miss out on one or the other. i am constantly trying to figure out how to have both, and if i cant have both, which one will i regret the most not following. and how does one ever decide between the two? do you have to decide? is it possible to have both? which will i regret the most if i let it go?
the urge to travel, to see the world, to have experiences i could have never even dreamed of - this is the newer of the two. this urge has swelled inside of me ever since i came back from Europe. i long for the adventure, the life changing journey that takes place when you leave societal norms behind and spread your wings to fly higher then you ever thought imagine able.
